I’m already exhausted from this weekend and it’s only Saturday night. I drove out to the Chicago area Thursday evening to stay with a friend in a ‘burb before my “informational meeting” Friday morning in the neighboring ‘burb. My “informational meeting” was basically an interview, but I wasn’t being interviewed because no positions were available. In politics, it’s all about who you know, so if I make a contact in one office, I can be recommended to other offices. It’s how I got my most recent internship. But this time it’s for a Real Job. And it went SWIMMINGLY.
But I feel bad.
I’m a go-getter. It’s an Aries quality. I’m head strong and stubborn and I get what I want. And then I go for something else almost immediately if I don’t like it. I’ve always been this way. Sometimes I think I’d be perfect for the cut-throat lifestyles of corporate New York or politics in DC, but I also know the toll stress takes on me. What up, ulcers?
So how does this make me feel bad?
I’ve been job searching for only a couple of months. I’ve sent out 30+ resumes (I lost track after two dozen). But I knew the right people to talk to. I haven’t heard ANYTHING regarding the resumes I’ve blindly sent out. I’ve been told that resumes that aren’t from the area get thrown out immediately. I think that’s 100% true. But good networking skills and the innate good of people scored me this “informational meeting” …and I have a strong feeling that this is going to lead to a Real Job. I was practically handed a job Friday, but again, it’s difficult when there’s nothing to offer.
And I feel bad about this, why? Ah ha, I’ll tell you— The Beau Named Joe has been job searching forever. But it’s an election year. Political jobs are practically growing on trees. And we’re in a recession. Wastewater engineering jobs are being cut back for lack of city funding. Right?
But I’m a go-getter. I can’t stand not knowing what I’ll be doing a month in advance. That’s why I picked up this gig camp counseling (I move in on Thursday!), just so I had something to look forward to. Sure it was a backup, sure it’s not what I want to do for the rest of my life, and no, it’s definitely NOT ideal. It’s just a back up plan, something to make money, something to keep me afloat until I find something else. If I hate it, I don’t have to stick with it. I have the power to change my mind. Isn’t that beautiful?
Sigh. I guess it’s all an Aries thing. Capricorns have to get it totally right the first time.
And I sorta feel awful about it.